Have you ever felt like you’ve spent so much time focusing on healing yourself, healing your heart and then moments in life occur that feel as if almost none of the healing happened? Certain wounds creep up. Fear approaches and uncertainty hits. All of a sudden you start questioning .. everything?
Healing literally means to make healthy, whole and restore to health. Sometimes there’s a negative connotation to the term healing. But to me, healing is an art. By fully embracing the healing process, growth can happen. The question is, will we fully lean in, reveal our shadows, and dig deeper in our healing journey?
I love that we are allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress simultaneously. Overtime, I’ve come to realize that healing is actually a lifelong process. Although I’ve healed from the past, it doesn’t mean certain wounds aren’t triggered into my present. If I don’t capture my thoughts in these moments and remind myself what I know to be true, this can cause me to downward-spiral. If a wound is not treated properly it can take even longer to heal. Sometimes wounds even leave scars. I think these scars are there to remind us of what we went through and how we got through it.
As life continues to unfold itself in its mysterious ways, so do the internal layers within my soul which need healing. What I try to remind myself is that the healing process isn’t on my timeline. So many times we want to control the process. We give ourselves deadlines on our feelings.. on our emotions, thinking we know what’s best for us.
From my experience, I now understand that I can’t try to heal on my own. I need Jesus daily.
Walking along Jesus, we are not promised an easy life and our worries and problems don’t magically go away. In John 16:33 it’s says “I have said these things to you, so that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
God understands the fears we face and the doubts that flood our mind, when all that is seemingly safe, secure, and stable is flung into disarray. He isn’t surprised when we come to Him with our pain. We don’t need to hold on to our hurts. We have a good and powerful God who is full of compassion and has already taken record of our hurt. He has a peaceful and hopeful way forward for us if we would just allow him to come close.
God knows the best way out of our pain. After all, He is the one who created our hearts. By leaning on Him, I’ve seen parts of my soul healed in ways I never thought would feel free. I am still in progress and on the healing journey, but i’m so thankful for how far He’s brought me. x
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”