I told myself last year that “one year from now, you’ll wish you started today.” Oh boy, am I so happy I started. From setting little goals I accomplished to completing big chapters in my life. In 2018, I learned so much about myself.
I was more vulnerable than ever. I felt rejection. I hustled. I was more intentional with the people I love. I made mistakes and hurt people I care about. I overcame. This past year, I was shown grace like never before.
Although 2018 had tough trials, I wouldn’t have changed anything. I no longer live by what if’s. I live in the now. The present. I’m constantly reminding myself that the best is yet to come.
Matthew 6:25-34 says: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
This is so good. Sometimes in the world we live in, if you don’t have your A,B,C’s and 1,2,3’s lined up, people look at you like something is wrong. What do you mean you don’t know what to do after college? You’ve been married for three years, isn’t it time to pop a baby out? I’m guilty of asking these too, but why do we spend so much time worrying about every little detail in our lives. And if your life doesn’t look how the world says—then something MUST be wrong? I disagree.
In 2019, I challenge myself to not worry about so much. The things I spend 75% of the time worrying about, don’t even occur. I am an over-thinker. I struggle with this and sometimes care too much about what people think. Working on this 🙂
But, when I soak in God’s truth about me, who I am and what He has planned for me, I place all my worries in His hands. I become more optimistic than ever despite the circumstances. I choose to be content where I am and learn to trust his guidance in the process.
2019, I am ready for you. I pray I no longer live in the past. I pray God shows me more wisdom. I pray for more growth, more memories, more love. More of Jesus and less of me. I pray to be sweeter, freer and braver than ever before.
In light of God’s deep affection, we no longer have to live in fear and worry. So, will you grow with me?